Day 17. Things that make you scared.

The biggest thing that scares me is the unknown. Not knowing what's going to happen next.

The second biggest thing would be giving up and not fulfilling my goals in life. This fear ties along with not making my parents proud. Something I really strive for sometimes. Not only do I do things for my benefit, I try to think about whether my parents would approve. Their opinion about certain things in my life is very valuable to me because they know me best and they obviously love me very much.

Day 16. 3 things you are proud of about your personality.

I feel like I have a really good and solid personality. 3 things that I am proud of would include: my ability to be honest and respectful, my responsible nature, and that I have a good heart. Being honest and respectful just comes so naturally. It's great. I have been told that I am too honest, not sure if that's a bad thing? I am very responsible and I like things to be done. My parents are very much in agreement with that one! Lastly, I definitely think I am a good-hearted person. I genuinely like seeing others happy and I am always ready to help them.

Day 15. (Scenario) your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

The fight would be nonexistent at that point, I would drop everything I was doing to help them. I'd be the first person there. Simple as that. I might be stubborn as hell but no fight, big or small, would ever get in the way.

Day 14. Your views on gay marriage.

I am for gay marriage. I have many gay/lesbian friends and they all have the right to get married if they please. If someone is AGAINST gay marriage, good for you but don't try to dictate the lives of others. Do what you want and let them do what they want. Live and let live! Just because I don't agree with guys peeing in public corners, doesn't mean I am going to go around and chop off all their penises! People who are constantly protesting and calling gay people out and acting violently on their beliefs of "no gay marriage" are sending a message to me that it's okay that I go around corners with a butcher knife. Doesn't that sound preposterous? Yes it does. It's absurd.

Day 13. A date you would love to go on.

I sure hope my boyfriend reads this! :P

This is really hard. I have a lot of ideal dates in mind. Hmmm...

I would definitely LOVE to go on a date to Disneyland. I love Disneyland and I feel like people have no worries there. We would spend a whole day there and just have fun.

Another date I would LOVE to go on would include a beach (preferably on a small Island), beautiful weather and tropical drinks. We would go swimming with dolphins, para-sailing and do other fun activities!

One more...Spending time at home watching movies and talking about everything and anything.

I like REALISTIC, fun-filled dates but I also like to sit somewhere, relax and just talk the day/night away. If I can't talk or have a successful conversation with the guy or have fun with him, I am not interested!

Day 12. Things you want to say to an ex.

I don't need to tell my ex anything I haven't already said. For the sake of the prompt I would repeat myself to him and direcly say:

-Thank you so much for doing what you did. Although it was a little scandalous...you truly made my life better than ever. Right now, I couldn't be happier. I tried everything and did everything I could to make you happy but the truth is, I wasn't happy myself and I'm glad you were able to see that. I know you knew. If it wasn't for you, I would be miserable. You saw that I wasn't strong enough and you were barely strong enough but you managed to do it. Everything happens for a reason and I'm excited that we're both happy with our lives now.

Although I can say bad things like "You don't deserve to be happy and you'll never find someone like me", I truly want him to be happy. It's true that he won't find anyone like me but that's his loss and my gain. Maybe once in a while he can regret letting me go and some of the stupid things he did but overall, I am happy with what happened and it was for the best!

Day 11. A hero that has let you down.

I have a lot of heroes. They all have weaknesses and strengths. You would think that I would focus on the strengths of my hero rather than their weaknesses. I focus on the weaknesses. It is the weaknesses that they overcome that make them so inspirational. Their struggle is what motivates and inspires me. Everyone struggles in life and those who can deal with them head on are truly enlightening. I mean... weaknesses are what really make you strong right?

Now that I have explained what a hero is to me, I can tell you that one of my heroes HAS let me down. As an outsider, I don't see this person having too many drastic events happening in their life right now. I want to emphasize that I am talking AS AN OUTSIDER looking in. I don't know what they go through emotionally or what underlying problems are going on. However, I saw that they really let their weaknesses get the best of them. They didn't let their weaknesses fuel their strengths. Instead, they gave up. That is the ultimate let down: to give up. I hope one day they will realize that giving up didn't help them in the long run.

Day 10. Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Everyone knows that drugs and alcohol are bad for you or at least ...most people know that. When I think of drugs, I think of hardcore drugs like Cocaine and such. I don't do drugs and I don't agree with doing them. I even consider marijuana one of those drugs and although I know it's not as harsh for your body as alcohol may be, I just don't agree with it. I definitely don't look down on people who do it because it's THEIR choice and they like it. I just don't agree with it. Alcohol is really bad for you but for some reason, I would enjoy drinking over doing drugs any day. I guess I think that people who do drugs think they are cool but I suppose it can go both ways and one can say people who drink think they are cool. All I know is, drugs aren't for me. Whether my logic is flawed or completely rational, the intake of drugs, to me, is worse than the intake of alcohol.

Day 9. Something you wish you HAD done.

While there are many things I wish I had done, there is one thing I regret most: Being in a serious relationship at an incredibly young age (14-19!!!). This relationship that I am referring to is what caused many of the displeasures in my life. :/ Here are just SOME examples as to why...

As a freshman in high school, I already had an idea that I wanted to be in the dental field and that I wanted to pursue that at UCLA, UOP(University of the Pacific in SF) or USC. I wanted to be a dentist initially but as time went on, I decided that becoming a Dental Hygienist would make me just as happy. When all of my friends were filling out applications to UC Berkeley and all these other great schools, I was busy listening to my boyfriend, "Those are just big name schools, they don't determine your intelligence or what you can do", which was true. But the fact that I was being threatened that if I moved here or there that the relationship would be over, is when I should have realized that he wasn't the guy for me. So here I am, not at UCLA or any of the aforementioned schools because of my childish thinking and because I was "in love".  -__- 

There was also the issue of my friends. My ex did not like my friends and he was very open about that and kept me very far from them. Another lesson learned.

In 2007, I went to Sao Jorge and decided to take my boyfriend with me because I thought it would be fun. I was very wrong. Not only did he want to stay home and read all day, he wanted ME to stay home too!! I couldn't go and explore the island. I couldn't even go to the salt water pools with my younger cousins without him threatening to do something stupid. It was such a horrible trip. He also cut a piece of my hair because I was joking around with hair moose and put it on him... -___- Boy, I do not miss that! Good riddens.

The list can go on and on, and there are much WORST things but these are just some light ones I thought would be easier to talk about. All in all, I wish I hadn't dated so young and obviously, I wish I hadn't dated THAT guy.

Day 8. Something you’re currently worrying about.

As of right now, I am not really worrying about anything too crazy besides... the dental hygiene program I'm in. It's very fast paced and I am just always worrying about tests, quizzes and performance evaluations every single day! Another challenge is finding patients!! It's a lot harder than I had anticipated. I am like the youngest person here, without any prior dental experience/knowledge so it's definitely tough. But hey, in a little over a year I'll be a Registered Dental Hygienist!

Day 7.Your opinion on cheating on people.

I am definitely not going to spend too much time thinking about this one. Cheating is wrong and that's pretty much it. I am completely against cheating and I feel like people who DO cheat are very weak.

Day 6. The person you like and why you like them.

I like a lot of people in this world but I like this person a bunch more.

This person can relate to me on so many levels that it’s a little scary. They have a lot of the same experiences as me and it just brings me closer and closer to them. They have the most amazing qualities: super caring, funny(sometimes :P), handsome, smart, competitive, driven, fearless, opinionated and happy.

He religiously believes in the word “happiness”. And how without this feeling, there’s no reason to wake up in the morning. Being solely content in life is out of the question. I like that he challenges that in me and how he wants me to feel happiness at all times. I like that he will do anything to achieve that. After having conversations with him, I feel refreshed and my day is THAT much better.

I like that he can argue with me in an intellectual manner, while being completely wrong the whole time but still feel that he’s right. I like that he can be himself with me and not feel like he needs to put on a show like many other people I know. I like the person he is and the person I am when I am with him.

You know how some people can only bring out the bad in you? He brings out the bad but he also brings out the best in me. He alleviates all stresses in me without knowing it.

Andrew Reis. I can go on and on. :) 

I hope you and happiness will always be with me. Thank you.    

Day 5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex

1. Laziness
2. Bad Hygiene!
3. Selective Hearing
4. Stubborness
5. Egotistical

I hate lazy men with bad hygiene that have selective hearing because they are too stubborn or have too big of an ego to care about anything.

Okay, give me some credit for TRYING to formulate a sentence that included all of my irritating factors!

I hate men who are lazy and can't cook!

I hate men who have bad teeth and horrible odor! Think Hygiene, please.

I hate men who only hear things they WANT to hear!

I hate guys who are too stubborn. They usually clash with me and won't ever win.

Guys with big ego's care far too much about themselves than they do others.

This was easy. :) By the way, if you change the words "men" or "guys" to the word "women" you will also see that this goes both ways for me.

Day 4. Something you hate about yourself.

I hate two things about myself. One: I am overly competitive. Two: I am too stubborn.

Being competitive is so natural for me. I see everything as a competition and although sometimes its good, most of the time, it's bad. I have had so many arguments over games because it wasn't fair that I didn't win. My opponent could have won fair and square but in my mind, I always have to win. Obviously, I am a sore loser. I am not AS competitive as I used to be so that's good. It's a step in the right direction.

Being stubborn runs in my family. I am stubborn because of my brother, my dad and all of my uncles! I swear! It was as if I was taught to be stubborn. This super great quality of mine always lands me in the stickiest situations. I sometimes feel bad for the people who have to deal with me on a daily basis. My brother says it best, "If I think the sky is red, no one will convince me otherwise". I love to prove people wrong and this comes with being stubborn. If someone tells me that I can't do something, I usually stick to doing whatever they told me I CAN'T do even if I'm miserable doing it. As long as I get to prove them wrong in the end, it's alllllll worth it.

Day 3. What kind of person attracts you?

This is interesting for me to write about because there isn't ONE kind of person that attracts me. I am attracted and open to various qualities and various types of people. The qualities can be completely opposite sometimes! It's a little on the ridiculous side but it's just what I'm attracted to!

First and foremost, the person has to be tolerable! There are some people in this world that do NOT attract me because being around them annoys the hell out of me! It's so true. I can be a very quiet person sometimes and usually when I AM quiet, I am either observing other people or I am just so annoyed that I can't contribute to any conversation they are having. Intolerable people include: people who are too into themselves, people who lie about their lives to make them seem like a better person (the worst!), people who don't know what they want (indecisive people) and people who TRY to be different from society to make a point (if you are TRYING to be different and it isn't natural, you aren't doing any justice, so please stop.).  

People who have their OWN opinions are very attractive to me. They have to be genuinely giving and very caring. Above all, good people with big hearts! :)

Day 2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Oh boy, what a great question. I'm going to have to tweak it a bit because I feel like I've dramatically changed in the past ehh... year or so. Two years would be pushing my memory anyways! The changes in my life are what changed me. And in the past year, I felt like my life was crumbling before my eyes. The loss of my best friend, a second mother to me, my Tia(aunt) Luzia. The end of a very long and flawed relationship with my first love. The ongoing questions of my Dad's health and cancer diagnosis. It all took a toll on me in a span of 4 months. It was bad news and more bad news after another. 2010 was one of the worst years I have ever experienced. 

Here I am now, months later, a better and stronger person. Want to know why?? While having to deal with everything in my life going wrong, I spent a lot of time thinking and contemplating and I was able to grow as a person. It taught me a very important lesson: that you can't plan your life. I still have plans for my life but they are very interchangeable and are definitely NOT set in stone. No one can predict the future. Things happen without warning. You're lucky if your even given a warning.

As I grew stronger and stronger into the person I am today, things in my life got a lot better. My Dad's tumor was removed and I am over the long and flawed relationship I once had. I haven't gotten over the death of my aunt but as I think about her everyday, it helps me understand life and everything we're given here. 

All in all, I have changed for the better and have really matured from the experiences in my life. 

Day 1. Something you love about yourself.

Hmm, while I'm sure others could answer this about me in a heart beat, it's actually a bit difficult for me. I guess I could give it a try and say I love my ambition? Yea ambition is good. For those of you who need a refresher on what ambition means...here you go: "an earnest desire for some type of achievement or distinction, as power, honor, or wealth, and the willingness to strive for its attainment." I'd like to think of myself as an ambitious person because with every obstacle I face, my ambition and drive is never damaged in the process. If there is a way to reach what I want, by any means, I will reach it. Whether or not my perfectly planned out pathway is ripped apart, I always seem to find another pathway that more than likely leads me to where I want to be. 

30-Day Truth Blog Challenge

30-Day Truth Blog Challenge


Day1. Something you love about yourself.


Day 2. How have you changed in the past 2 years? 



Day 3. What kind of person attracts you? 



Day 4. Something you hate about yourself.


Day 5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.


Day 6. The person you like and why you like them. 



Day 7.Your opinion on cheating on people. 



Day 8. Something you’re currently worrying about.


Day 9. Something you wish you HAD done.


Day 10. Your views on drugs and alcohol. 



Day 11. A hero that has let you down.


Day 12. Things you want to say to an ex. 



Day 13. A date you would love to go on. 



Day 14. Your views on gay marriage.


Day 15. (Scenario) your best friend is in a car accident and you two got

              into a fight an hour before. What do you do?


Day 16. 3 things you are proud of about your personality. 



Day 17. Things that make you scared. 



Day 18. Disrespecting parents.


Day 19. Something that never fails to make you feel better. 



Day 20. Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.

             (Just post the titles and artists and letter)


Day 21. Something you can’t seem to get over. 



Day 22. 10 things about you people don’t really expect.


Day 23. Something you always think “what if…” about



Day 24. Things you want to say to 5 different people. 



Day 25. 10 ways to win your heart. 



Day 26. Your religious beliefs. 



Day 27.Talk about your siblings. 



Day 28.The month you were happiest this year why. 



Day 29. A picture of yourself. 



Day 30. What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.